Five Minute Friday: Last

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I had heard people proclaim, “I’m mad at God!.” But I had never experienced it myself until one summer evening. I had felt abandoned by the Lord at times, but this was different. I laid my head on my pillow one night and said, “Jesus, I’m mad at You.”

There was a breakthrough I needed in my life and it just wasn’t happening on my time table. So I blamed it on God. After several minutes, I fell asleep.

I woke up eight hours later thinking, “How ridiculous for me to be mad at Jesus. He’s the only One who can truly rescue me. Being mad at Him won’t help anything.” Within minutes of waking, I prayed, “Lord, forgive me for my silliness. Please forgive me for being mad at You.”

Right there, while lying in my bed, I said, “Lord, I surrender everything to You.”

Previously, I had surrendered parts of my life to Him and had been following Him for years and years. This was different though. It was a defining moment for me. It was the last time I ever tried to do things without His help and guidance.

And guess what? I received the breakthrough I was waiting on within weeks. At last, my life was permanently on the course that leads to abundance and beauty, leaving disappointment behind forever. I realized the day I surrendered everything to my Creator that I am free at last to live in His abundant peace forever until Christ returns.

“The thief only comes to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” John 10:10 (NASB)

I’m linking up for Five Minute Friday where Lisa Jo Baker and other awesome people write for five minutes flat with no self critiquing or no striving for perfection. This week’s prompt is: “Last.”  Today, I wrote for about nine minutes, trying to find a good stopping point.

Photography Credit: Christa von Borstel

6 Thoughts on “Five Minute Friday: Last

  1. It’s amazing how freeing it is to truly surrender to Him, even amidst the most painful of circumstances.

    • Amy Lynne on August 23, 2013 at 2:27 pm said:

      Thank you, Jennifer, for reading my post today. Yes, it is amazing how freeing it is when we truly surrender!

      Many blessings to you!

  2. I’ve been in this place too, friend! It is always tempting to wonder why God would allow such hurtful things into our lives. But there is so much peace and joy when we surrender to His will. Thank you for sharing your heart! I’m one of your neighbours over at FMF. :)

    • Amy Lynne on August 23, 2013 at 2:33 pm said:

      Thank you, Leah, for reading my post. I think the hurt we experience is worth it because it’s in the hard places that we draw closer to Christ. And I agree with you…there is so much peace and joy when we surrender to His will. :)

  3. BEAUTIFUL post and BEAUTIFUL TRUTH! Thank you so much for sharing something that’s needed to be heard by so many of us!

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